Rough Couple of Days

Ugh it's been a really crappy few days. Turns out there's alot more that needs to be done to the car. Jason is a bit stubborn and he must have visited the auto place countless times and demanded to know exactly what they were doing and why. They did show him and when he said he believed them (cause for a while we weren't sure if they were pulling something or not) then I felt better.

However it's still twice what I thought it was gonna be. And when you factor in having to rent a car for two days that didn't help. My neck pain is still bad.. it lessens here and there but I can't turn my neck without pain and it often just hurts when I am doing nothing. The headache above my eye also comes and goes. Both flare up in times of extreme stress, which has obviously been alot the last few days.

Oh and I had to reformat my computer last night. Right before a raid. WoW is my escape remember? I kept getting MBR errors and finally had no choice. Luckily my WoW is on another hard drive so at least I didn't have to reinstall that. I am reformatting that drive currently as I froze up again today and I wanted all bases covered.

I have sat down and cried a few times, I wont lie. Between the physical pain, the stress, the frustration and the kids (who have not been THAT bad but even a little is hard right now) I just let myself go.

I had plans for that money. It's not the end of the world though. I was gonna get Heather some more summer clothes. She has some though, and it's not like I don't do laundry every day regardless. I was gonna stock up on some food and household items, to free up some money from Jason's paycheck, but now I will just have to buy it like I always do. I was gonna pay off some small credit we had so we wouldn't have the monthly payments anymore, but we'll just keep making the payments.

I am most upset by not being able to pay my Dad back. I know he doesn't care but he got us out of a few jams last year and it's important to me that he knows I am not just sponging off him or something.

I was gonna get a Sunday paper subscription so I wouldn't have to worry about running out for coupons. Now I'll run out. I was gonna cut our cable down to just basic and get the unlimited Netflix plan with the box ($100) they send to feed directly to your TV. So Jason could watch any movies he wanted and also current shows and movies. It would cut our cable bill in half but we'd be getting more. I think we're still gonna cut the cable and maybe even still get the Netflix unlimited but we can't buy the box. It's not the end of the world.

My shoes have holes in them and I was gonna buy a new pair. But as Jason says, I have a perfectly good pair in the closet I rarely wear because they hurt my feet. Probably because I never broke them in. So now I will break them in.

I wanted to give Jason a few hundred dollar to buy some new speakers he really wanted. And now I guess he'll be ok with what he has.

As long as we get the car back. We have the money to fix it (i.e. nothing else huge crops up) and it runs well for a long time.. none of it is the end of the world. But it doesn't mean I am not sad about it.